Chapter 189
Chapter 189
JARIS
If I could punch myself in the jaw right now and make it hurt, I would.
I hated myself more than anything right now, not because I got someone pregnant, but because Lyric was hurt. So fucking hurt because of me.
Damn it. I should’ve told her. I just knew it was wrong and didn’t want to deal with the guilt. Plus, we were already cool, so I didn’t think there would ever be a reason to open up about it.
For two days, I didn’t get to see her. Though I knew where she was staying but didn’t make any attempt to go near her as I knew she needed space. Even I didn’t know how to face her.
But the coronation was the following day–as was my marriage with Marta–and there was no way I’d be able to proceed with it if Lyric and I were still in this mood.
So, I summoned her home. Sent some guards to get her and instructed them not to leave without her.
I knew she could be stubborn when she wanted to be. So, the guards were permitted to drag her here if the need arose.
They brought her to a private spot I’d booked for us by the beach.
It was night, making the atmosphere more calm and peaceful.
I needed us to talk but also needed some privacy for us.
She was wearing casual jeans and a black top with her hair flying over her shoulders. Her arms were crossed and daggers thrown at the guards behind
her.
They might’ve forced her to come, but I was sure they didn’t hurt her in any way. I made it clear they were not supposed to.
“Why am I here?” She snapped, crossing her arms over her chest.
I dragged my eyes from her face to her belly.
Her belly. Where she had my child.
I still couldn’t believe it. Lyric was pregnant for me.
I dismissed the guards.
“Please, take a seat.” I pointed at the seat facing mine.
“I’m fine on my feet. You know, I’d really appreciate it if you could hurry up.”
“Sit down, Lyric.” There was no room for further arguments in my voice.
She glared at me but eventually took the seat.
I took a calming breath. “The guards weren’t rough with you, I hope?”
“What does it matter? They got me here when I didn’t want to.” I noticed she was trying so hard to avoid my gaze.
“I’m sorry…. you were forced to come here.”
Goodness! Was this what it felt like being, with someone you cared about? Your entire attitude changes that you barely recognize yourself?
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Because why on earth have I been apologizing to Lyile since I met her?
Inever apologized to anyone. It’s just never been my thing. Yet, here I was, doing it effortlessly for this woman.
“I didn’t mean to hurt you, you knew?” I started. “When I met you, I didn’t even want this contract to take place between us. But then, things kept eating better between us, and before I knew it, I became obsessed with you.”
I went ahead to tell her how it all started after I saw her naked that day in the room. Told her how she was the only woman that’s ever made me finish ini : bed. Well, she was the second woman, actually, but it wasn’t relevant in this case.
I shamelessly explained how I’d jerk to the image of her, until gradually it just wasn’t enough anymore.
Told her how I wanted her, it started to hurt.
I didn’t keep a single detail from her; didn’t know if this would even create a difference. I just had to do something.
The last two days had been very difficult for me considering the fact that I had to be away from her. She didn’t know it, but I’d stationed a guard outside her hotel to make sure she was safe.
Lyric had evaded my dark quiet world. Now, she was all I wanted.
“If I could turn back the hands of time, I would, just to correct my silly mistake. I can’t–I can’t have you being away from me, Lyric. It’s killing”
She stared at me in surprise, like I’d said something ridiculous. What? Didn’t she know how important she was to me?
“I need you home. Please.” I added.
She uncrossed her arms, lowering her eyes to the floor. “Why? You have an important day ahead that should keep you busy enough not to worry about
“Stop it,” I snapped. “I’m damn serious, Ly.” I glanced at her belly. “I’m sorry I put you in a situation you didn’t want now. But…” I took a deep breath. “You could-“I paused, holding her stare for some time. Why was it so difficult getting the words out?
“You could get rid of it if you want to Lyric.”
Her eyes collided with mine, sparkling with surprise.
“I mean, I hate the fact that I’m imposing this on you. But if you chose to keep the baby,” I expelled a long breath. “I promise you’ll not be alone, I’ll take full responsibility, make sure you two are well taken care of. And of course, I wouldn’t want to be away from my child. So, nobody’s asking you to leave in ten months or whatever month we have left.”
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LYRIC
I couldn’t believe Jaris was saying those words to me.
I watched his lips move, my heart beating as fast as they did.
Jaris wanted me to stay. It sounded like a fairytale, and how it’d have meant the world to me if there was any possiblity for the both of us.
“Why are you crying, Lyric?” The guilty look was back on his face. “Did I say something wrong?”
“No.” I laughed. “No, please. Don’t mind me. It’s just–” My life is so fucked up. Despite your apology it’s already ruined a lot for me by leaving me with this baby I can’t even get rid of because of course, I could never harm my own child.
Now, I’d likely have to flee with three of his children when the time did come, which would be me endangering three innocent lives with my sick ‘gift‘
If he even know what I was, I had no doubt he’d want me to get rid of this child himself.
Chapter 189
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