Chapter 187
JARIS
She texted the location and I was there in no time. She opened up when I rang the bell, and the moment I laid eyes on her, I forgot about my worries for a minute.
She was wearing a thigh–length night dress–short enough to reveal her thick thighs. It had a matching jacket, but it did nothing to hide the beauty of her cleavages.
Her hair was down and on her shoulders, her face bare of makeup.
It was just a nude–colored dress, yet she looked beyond sexy.
It wasn’t until I stopped looking at her flesh and looked at her face instead that I realized how sore her eyes were. It drew a frown on my face.
“Have you been crying?”
She shook her head while trucking some strands of hair behind her ear. Now who was she kidding?
I made my way into the small cozy room.
“You shouldn’t be here,” she mumbled.
“And where else should I be?”
“I don’t know. With the grand Luna?”
Her words struck me deeply.
I was about to say something when she suddenly winced and clutched her tummy.
“Hey!” I rushed to hold back, but she stepped back.
“Are you still sick? I thought you were getting better?”
“I’m fine.” She stopped wincing, her tone hard.
“You don’t look fine.” I tried going to her again. “You need to-”
“Please! I told you I’m fine.” This time, she snapped, still taking more steps away from me.
I forced myself to give her some space.
“Look, I’m not mad, Jaris. I–I really don’t understand why you’re here ‘cause I’m sure the party is still-”
“I’m sorry.” I cut her off, closing my eyes briefly. “I wanted to tell you, Lyric. I’m sorry I didn’t find the right time, but I planned on telling you on the jet today. It wasn’t my intention for you to find out this way.”
My words didn’t seem to have much effect on her. Instead, the hurt in her eyes grew, like she was more wounded I was admitting to the fact that I ha
in mind to make Marta my Luna this whole time.
“You should’ve just told me,” she chuckled–though it was forced. “I mean, I don’t get why you think it was a big deal. Marta is a cool lady. Plus, y–you:ve known her before me. So, I think it’s pretty fine to-”
“I had to do it for the kids,” I cut in, already knowing where her thoughts were headed.
Her brows drew together as she looked at me with perplexity.
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“The Elders told me they’d be regarded as outcasts if I didn’t get married to their mother. They said I could marry any woman of my choice, but when that woman had children, only hers would be regarded as legitimate. Xylon would not have access to the throne.”
I watched as her lips parted, shock reflecting in her eyes.
“A–Are you serious?”
I shrugged. “Marta might be cool to some people, but I’d never intentionally pick someone like her to be my Luna.” I gave a slight pause. “I didn’t even think it was possible for me to have kids. Xylon and Xyla… they’re more than a blessing to me. And it’s possible I’d never have another apart from them. So, what’s the point of making them illegitimate, huh, when they’re all I have? Quite unfortunate I have to end up with Marta.”
She brushed her fingers into her hair as she turned away. I watched her amble to the window, still pulling at her roots.
“I’m sorry, Lyric.” I apologized for the second time tonight. “I never wanted it to go like this.”
She might not say it, but I knew she was broken by it. She was hoping to be Grand Luna, and I didn’t know anyone more deserving of the position.
But unfortunately, things don’t always go as planned.
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LYRIC
I didn’t know how to stay mad at Jaris after his explanation the previous night. Even I would’ve chosen my kids I was in his shoes.
So, I didn’t blame him. But that didn’t mean I wasn’t hurt that things turned out this way.
He and Marta would have to get married and they’d be together forever. For me? There was no place for me.
It wasn’t like there ever was.
Our flight back to Darkspire was scheduled for that morning. While getting ready in the room, I felt nauseated again and threw up.
It was getting worse. I’d been taking my medicine and all, yet none of it was working. And it was as if the sickness only occured in the mornings and
evenings.
I know I’d laughed at Guinevere and the Pack doctor when they suggested it, but the symptoms were really beginning to look like what they suspected.
Still, it didn’t make any sense. I hadn’t been intimate with anyone for six years! How could I possibly be pregnant?
And of course, it wasn’t possible to get pregnant through some crazy sex–dreams.
But right now, it looked like there was nothing else to do other than to perform the test. Maybe it’d finally clarify things so I’d be sure there was something else wrong with me, not pregnancy.
With that, I concluded that I’d do a pregnancy test as soon as I reached home.
Jaris‘ family was also flying back with us.
Jaris and I reached the airport together and headed to the boarding gate.
We sat next to each other in the room of the jet, but a while later, he excused himself to do something, and that was when Marta came in.
She was literally glowing. I couldn’t begin to imagine how happy she must be to be getting married to Jaris.
“Lyric darling,” she crossed her legs as she took the seat Jaris had occupied. “Don’t you think I should be the one in that seat?” She jutted her chin toward where I was sitting.
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“I mean, Jaris and I will be getting married in three days. It’s only right we get enough space to bond. Right?”
She had a smug smile on her face, looking so proud.
“Wow,” I scoffed. “You’ve been with this guy for six years, had kids for him, yet you don’t have even the slightest bond, do you?” I clicked my tongue, shaking my head. “That’s quite sad, Marta. Anyway, not to worry, you can bond all you want when we get home. For now, he wants me to sit beside him.
I didn’t miss the glint that crossed her eyes just before she smiled.
“It’s fine.” She leaned back, crossing her arms. “You can stay here for now. Afterall, it’s only temporary. I guess people were right when they said good things come to them that wait. You started off being his mate, but guess who’s Grand Luna today?” She laughed and stood up.
“If I were you, I’d be more respectful to me considering the difference in our position. Trust me, you wouldn’t want to mess with me right now, Lyric.”
It was
difficult pretending her words didn’t sting so bad.
“Sad,” I huffed. “That you see this position as a tool for power, not a responsibility to lead. The people deserve better.”
Her smile was gone in an instant. Fortunately, Jaris returned before she could say anything else. So, she had to leave.
Jaris had been trying so hard to make things right between us. Trying to make me laugh and all. But it was really tasky as I was still hurt, no matter what. Today’s revelation only proved to me that my position in his life was only temporary, and maybe I’d gotten to a point where I thought I could be more…..
He left for a meeting as soon as we reached Darkspire while I went ahead to get a test strip.
Despite being so sure I wasn’t pregnant, my hands still shook as I stood in the bathroom, waiting for the test lines.
Idle and out of curiosity, I imagined what would happen if I was actually pregnant for Jaris. That would be me having three kids for him. I laughed in my head about it.
Last night, when he mentioned Xylon and Xyla were all he had, I couldn’t deny feeling a little hurt. I loved how he loved those kids, but it was sad he didn’t know he had two more he could love like that.
So, imagine making it three. That was hilarious.
My mirth, however, vanished when the second line appeared on the strip. My brows tightened, thoughts racing in my mind yet none of them seemed factual.
Two red lines.
What did two red lines mean again?
I dropped the strip, reached for my phone and googled it.
Oh, of course I wasn’t dumb. I perfectly knew what two red lines meant. But something about it was not making me believe it anymore.
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