Chapter 120
Ayla
I turn to Thane in surprise. I have never seen a Midnight Pack mating ceremony, but I didn’t think I needed to come up with things to say. Not that I don’t want to, but I would prefer to say them in private as these feelings are still difficult for me to wrap my head around. I know that we are fated mates, and 1 love him, but expressing it in front of others is overwhelming. I guess I am just plain feeling shy really, but I also feel excitement start to form. I think I have been in a haze since mating with Thane, and I can feel his overwhelming happiness pulsating warm in the bound, but I also feel a hint of trepidation. I think verbalizing our feelings in front of others when we have spent our lives closed off is a big step, and scary one.
Thane is looking at me with adoration in his eyes. I can’t help but bash and squeeze his hands tighter. “Ayla, the circumstances in which we met is not something I would wish upon my worst enemy, but I hope that one day you look back and only dwell on the memory of me coming for you and not what was done to you, like I do. When I found you, it was the saddest, most happy day of my life. I knew when I found you that you were meant for me, even if I was too stupid to put the clues together. I hurt for you, but I was excited to watch you change and grow. To overcome. Your strength is unfathomable, whether you realize it or not. I know that with you by my sides my fated mate and luna, that anything we set out to do will be accomplished. Anything we need to conquer will be conquered. Nothing will ever remove you from my side. I will always come for you little wolf. Always. I love you and I am truly blessed by the fates to call you my mate and luna.”
If Cyrus had any bets on my crying, he would win. My face is a waterfall of tears as I replay Thane rescuing me, taking care of me, pushing me to be better in the gentlest way possible. He brings my hand up to his mouth and places a kiss on my knuckles. I can hear the ‘oooo’s & ahhhh’s‘ from the crowd, some whispering that they have never seen their alpha so vulnerable. He is baring himself to us, allowing himself to love and be happy. I am too.
“Ayla, would you like to say anything before we proceed with the pack declarations?” Elder James asks me and I impulsively say ‘yes despite not knowing what I am going to say. I am just going to be led and hope that my inner ramblings come out right.
“Thane, when you found me was the darkest time of my life. I gave up completely and spent my days wishing for death.” He grimaces at that, and I can feel sadness and anger in our bond, but I continue. “I gave up on ever hoping for a better life, then you came, and you saved me. In more ways than one. I went from wanting to run, not talking, and living in a constant state of fear and paranoia to feeling freedom, having a job and friends, and love. You gave me a life here. You pushed me gently to live and you keep me breathing. I wouldn’t be here without you. I would have been trapped in that cage forever. There aren’t words that can tell you how much I love you, but I know you can feel it here.” I point to my chest and place my palm over it and send a wave of longing and as much love as I can muster and push it down through the bond. His eyes widen, searching mine while he takes it all it. Feeling the actual love, we have for each other. There aren’t words. “I love you, Thane. I will always be yours. Together, forever.”
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