Chapter 188
LYRIC
I kept tapping my legs against the floor, my arms wrapped around myself as I sat on the edge of the bed.
I was shaking. Didn’t even know if it was cold from the nausea or due to how shocked, worried
and scared I was.
I glanced at the clock. It’s been thirty minutes. What the hell was taking him so long?
I stood up, pacing the room with my nails digging into my hair from time to time. When I heard the door opening, I snappily turned like he was some sort of savior I’d been waiting on for ages.
“Are you alright?” He rushed forward.
I figured he must’ve been pretty worried considering how I called and demanded his presence at home immediately.
“No, I’m not.” My tone was biting. “As a matter of fact, I’m losing my mind and-”
“Hey, calm down and talk to me. What’s going on?”
I closed my eyes and took in a very deep breath.
“Have you been sleeping with me before now?”
The question seemed to freeze the air. Asking it myself actually made me more scared.
“You know, I never thought I’d be saying this to you, but months before now, you and I…we used to have these sex dreams. It only happened in my dreams, you know, and I was sure that was all it was. But now…” I laughed. “It might seem I’d been delusional. So please, tell me the truth. Have you been sleeping with me?”
His silence was killing. Why wasn’t he saying anything?
“Did you leave those pills in my room?!” My voice climbed a step higher “Wh–Why aren’t you saying anything?!”
My eyes widened in horror. The guilt and disappointment was becoming more evident on his face.
“Oh, gods.” I took some steps back. “It was you.” Fear gripped my throat so tight my next words were actually difficult to share. “Those pills … were they even real? I mean, did they only sedate me to make me think the sex were dreams? What have you been doing to me!?”
He stopped toward me, holding out his hands. “Lyric, I—”
“No, don’t touch me!” I yelled. “For two months, you deceived me! Had access to my body without even my knowledge and made me believe it was a dream! How could anyone be so evil?! How could you do this to me? Yet, you got pissed off by the things your brother did? You did worst! You’ve been raping me!”
“It wasn’t like that!” It was his turn to yell.
I don’t think I’d seen Jaris look so guilty before.
“Fuck, I’m sorry, Lyric. I didn’t-”
“Sorry?” I laughed sarcastically. “You think sorry can fix this?”
“Fine. I admit–it was my biggest mistake. I should’ve done better-”
“But you just don’t care about people, do you? You only care about getting what you want, no matter who gets hurt. Including sleeping with an unconscious woman.”
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Chapter 188
“Will you stop cutting me off?!” His eyes were getting darker.
What the hell? “That’s all you’re concerned about right now? You just got me pregnant and you’re only concerned about me raising my voice?!*
It wasn’t until the words were but that I hated myself for not thinking. I held my breath as I turned away from him, digging my hands into my hair.
For a full minute, Jarle
dead silent. As was 1, looking away from him.
“That’s not possible,” he finally said, his voice barely above a whisper and edged with disbelief. “You can’t You can’t be. I mean, used protection at the
time.”
I turned angrily at him. “Well, I guess if the sex had been consensual, I’d have noticed the times the condom broke or something I didn’t get myself pregnant!”
The memory came running to me–one morning when I’d woken up and found myself wetter than usual. I’d waved it off as something normal considering I’d been horny during the night. Now, it made sense.
Jaris shook his head, his eyes flying to my belly. “You’re pregnant?”
His face became blurry. Took me a moment to realize I was crying.
“Fuck, Lyric.” He turned toward the door, his hand going to his forehead.
Gods, I shouldn’t have told him. How unfortunate that my mouth was faster than my brain.
I grabbed my bag and keys, wiping my tears as I headed to the door.
“Wait. Where are you going?” Jaris held my hand before I could open the door.
“Please, 1 can’t deal with this right now.”
“No, we need to talk.”
“You know,” I sniffled, forcing my hand free from his. “I love kids and all, but I don’t need this right now. I have a lot going on in my life that…. that makes all of this an inconvenience. I mean, yours is just set out–you’ll be King, the mother of your children by your side as Luna. And me?” I shrugged
pathetically. “I am just stuck here, ready to leave when my time with you is up.”
More tears came spilling down.
“You shouldn’t have forced this on me, Jaris. Not now.”
I sniffled and started toward the door. His hand reached for mine, grabbing me in an instant.
“Please, we need to talk.”
“I can’t.” My voice broke even more. “Not now. I can’t even think straight.”
I tried to wipe my face, but more tears just came running down.
I was fucking pregnant! Had a life inside of me. How did this happen?!
“Please, let me go. Please.”
He finally did. And I left without looking back.
